41!!!

ok, it's been almost a year since i've last blogged, so i'm back and have made many some decisions and changes about my life over the last year! So here is the top ten things i have decided to do, want to do or am striving to do.....

10. I have moved back to the city (ok, town)...for my kids....that's sacrifice I think! I love the country and will always be a country girl...(heck, i'm not wearing any shoes right now!lol) but for their happiness..(ok, so in the long run will it actually matter???? who knows?But it has to mean something when your a kid...and your parents actually listen to what you have to say, and actually make a change FOR you...at least i hope it does)they want to be in town, close to their friends....and school...can't blame them...

9. I have begun to EXERCISE!!! Ok, in my "previous" life...this was a DIRTY word!!!!! But for the last 4 weeks, my best friend and I have been walking EVERY night (i think we've missed a couple 4 at the most)...and LAST NIGHT.....I walked 4 rounds of our course and RAN (OK, jogged) the last one!!!!!!!! For me that is huge!

8. With the help of good friends, i am converting from being a MESSY.....to a???? (ok, i dont know the word...but you get the point)...so we will see how this goes :)

7. Dedicated myself to fulfilling at least one dream at a time.....i'm writing a.....ok, not ready to reveal that yet...but i am WRITING!!! so stay tuned

6. I am trying to become that "mom"....you know the one...that doesnt necessarily do 'EVERYTHING' but the GOOD STUFF for my kids.....the stuff that memories are made of! I am realizing that I dont have to coach everything, be involved in everything to be a great mom....i'm focusing on the IMPORTANT stuff!

5. I am learning to be ok with me! I cant remember a time that i've been ok with being me....so this will entail many changes....but let's see what God has in store....

4. I want to cultivate true real friendships with some of my favorite people....not try to be a friend to EVERYONE....cause i've come to realize that EVERYONE will not be your friend, EVERYONE will not always like you, and that is ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (boy, that's going to be a challenge)

3. I want a TRUE relationship with God.....NOT FOR ANYONE except me!!!!!

2. I want to be a truly Honest and Trustworthy person.....in the past, i have made promises to others, myself, God, my family...and i TRULY MEAN TO HONOR EACH ONE...but for one reason or another....i havent kept my word....or broken my promise for some reason, i want to mean what i say, and say what i mean...which has always been impossible for me.....I want to speak AFTER THINKING....not spew what my brain comes up with before thinking it through....

1. I am in search of a career....not a job....but what i was put here to accomplish........... who knows w hat that will be....but i hope with God, myself, my friends and family...i can discover what that will be.....

So those are the top 10 things i am striving to do.....so stay tuned...i think it will be an interesting ride!!